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Nu har Dana tvingat mig att skriva igen, så nu ska jag väll börja igen, and so it starts. idag var det en skön dag, allt gick smooth, no rocks on the way, exept one minor one, but which I think in the longer term will fade away. Anyway just nu gör jag inte så mycket, kollar på tv och lyssnar på musik.
And while sitting here, I wonder does real friendship exist? I mean I have friends, and always have had, however they just seem temporary, not that you would forget them, but u can live without them. Which is quite sad, because that might just as well mean that I have not yet found that real friend I can trust 100%. That real friend that always seems to be there for you, and that friend you just dont hide anything from. I mean, my friends are the best, and I love being with them, but it just doesnt seem like longterm friendship. It worries me that I will never be able to find that real friend, but what worries me the most is maybe I'm just not looking after that? I'm not open, I mean I'm openminded and all, I just dont open myself for people, not even for the closest, not anyone knows my deepest secrets not even my mother. I just feel afraid to tell them to anyone, as I have before been hurt and let down, so I just dont want to go through anything similar again.
Anyway enough with the confessing, I have a song that I'm listening over and over again, which makes me lust after a similar song made for me, u know, someone singing it for me, it is called All that I am, sung by Joe. Really recommend it!!!.
Anyway tomorrow maybe I will got to Malmö, however not sure, cuz I have to do looots and loots of homework. Gosh I have no life, its homework that my life seems to be based on. When will "magical" stuff happen? When will I start living? Outside the overy(livmoder) of mother School.
The recommended song will be posted on the blog, so take a peek.
Love .B.
And while sitting here, I wonder does real friendship exist? I mean I have friends, and always have had, however they just seem temporary, not that you would forget them, but u can live without them. Which is quite sad, because that might just as well mean that I have not yet found that real friend I can trust 100%. That real friend that always seems to be there for you, and that friend you just dont hide anything from. I mean, my friends are the best, and I love being with them, but it just doesnt seem like longterm friendship. It worries me that I will never be able to find that real friend, but what worries me the most is maybe I'm just not looking after that? I'm not open, I mean I'm openminded and all, I just dont open myself for people, not even for the closest, not anyone knows my deepest secrets not even my mother. I just feel afraid to tell them to anyone, as I have before been hurt and let down, so I just dont want to go through anything similar again.
Anyway enough with the confessing, I have a song that I'm listening over and over again, which makes me lust after a similar song made for me, u know, someone singing it for me, it is called All that I am, sung by Joe. Really recommend it!!!.
Anyway tomorrow maybe I will got to Malmö, however not sure, cuz I have to do looots and loots of homework. Gosh I have no life, its homework that my life seems to be based on. When will "magical" stuff happen? When will I start living? Outside the overy(livmoder) of mother School.
The recommended song will be posted on the blog, so take a peek.
Love .B.
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